| who tells me that its my fault. but it's ok because he still loves me. and he prays with me. and informs me life is going to be ok. i think life got excited :D |
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| with the fact that it might be awhile before i date.
and that makes me happy.
im so not ready to date. at all...
i have my g. best friend. and the m.s. best friend.
and my life is good to go :D
those are the only men i need in my life (besides my daddy)
i do have to say though, that if i am lonely for the rest of my life,
i hope that someone becomes my only exception,
like the one that hayley williams sings about :D
that would bring me joy |
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| so then i'd have someone to comfort me and tell me everything is alright.
while im drinking the drink from hell purchased at starbucks and eating my mashed potatoes.
:(
because maybe he'd hug me.
tell me it was my fault. but that he loves me.
and that in the end. this is a lesson from god.
and god forgives me.
and then we'd pray.
then he'd give me space.
but it would all be alright.
sometimes life sucks too much to handle it on your own.
perhaps thats why god gives us spouses.
ha |
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| i went on a date.
with jazz hands.
never wanna do that again.
but im keeping his clothes.
i function better when im single.
or when im with the van
see the van and i just know each other.
a lot. and we went slow to get this way
but this promotes an issue.
am i too close with him that i cannot function without him?
if feel bad.
it needs to be fixed in the mean time
how do i break up with someone im not even dating.... |
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| those words hurt.
like crazy
the words themselves do not matter.
the meaning and truth behind them do.
i got a comment in my truth box the other day saying
"sometimes the things you say hurt me"
i know who it was from.
and it sucks.
when i look at myself i wonder who i've turned into.
im doing a lot to succeed in life.
but is it really success if i don't have anyone along to share it with?
kinda like into the wild.
he realized that true happiness and love only comes
from being around people who truly make you happy,
and complete saddness comes when you shut the rest of
the world out.
what if i have started to do that in fear of getting hurt again?
i have a cycle.
its time i turn it off. |
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